I’m actually finishing my doctorate.  The editor has 160-pages as does my committee, and I’m just waiting and finishing up the work for my physiological course that ended in terms of f2f contact on Sunday.  I have a very short paper and two tests for it, but that is about it.  I also have to read four articles to weave into the  discussion posts, but I don’t have anymore classes that I have to attend.

Something really weird happened yesterday.  My sister-in-law asked me some questions about neurotransmitters and bipolar, and I knew that serotonin would have something to do with it, because of depressive mood being present in one part of the cycle, but as I talked myself through it, I realized that GABBA and dopamine would also be affected.  She seemed like that brief explanation was somewhat helpful, but then I glanced at the chapter that she was reading.

I had this memory trigger.  It was odd, but I could remember sections in a textbook that I read.  It took me way longer to find the text than it did to find the section, which had lots of information about dopamine in it, which made a ton of sense to me given that people who are sensation seekers (which could be at least partially related to a manic mood state) seek dopamine that they don’t often produce at high levels.

Boom.  When I talked to my partner about this experience, she found it amazing.  I had taken that class just over five-years-ago, but the thing is that I don’t have much room for anything superfluous right now. I can only really think and recall things related to psychology.  I think it’s because I’m at this stage. I have been pouring through revisions on my dissertation, and the current class that I’m taking is not a counseling one, so it requires lots of mental effort on my part.  The derivative: I can only really think about psychology.  That’s it.  I feel unidimensional, but I think that has been what has been required for me to actually get to this stage.  I need to graduate, because I fear that I will develop some odd behaviors.  Help me.